Saturday, March 23, 2013

     My name is Cassie, my husband Bradley and I had the most beautiful baby boy on February 6, 2012.  He was the pride and joy of our lives.  Noah, our son, gave us a renewed purpose in life.  He was a happy baby, never cried, never fussed.  He started sitting up quickly, walking at 9 months.  Always learning and discovering new things.  We've never known a love like that of our amazing and beautiful child.  He was loved unconditionally. 
     On March 4, 2013 Noah went down for his daily nap, and for unknown reasons, never woke up.  Our lives are shattered as we wait to find out what happened.  How could a healthy, lively energetic little boy be gone?  We've been told it could take months before we have answers to our questions if there are any at all.  We are lost.
    We dont know how to move forward.  We've been told by many that we will never get over the loss of our son, but we will get through it.  How do you get through something like this.  Noah should be here.  I've also been told that he is in a better place now.  I dont believe that, he was happy here and he belongs in my arms that is his better place.
    I wanted to start this blog because writing has always been an outlet for me to express my feelings in ways that I wouldn't other wise be able to. We want to take this tragic loss and turn it into an opportunity to branch out and help others and create a sort of support system, becasue as anyone who as lost someone close to them knows, they can't bare this burden alone. We want this to be a place were people can come and discuss their bad days, good days, and every day in between.

So come back, read anytime you want to. We will post as often as we emotionally feel the need to. Please, comment and share your stories and together we can get through this.

7 comments:

  1. Cassie and Bradley, I know the loss of a child my son Shane was 2 months and 4 days he was born on Dec. 14,1983. He was also happy,never cried. He was the most amazing baby. They claimed it was SIDS. Not a day goes by I don't think if him and wonder what he would be like today. There really is no good support groups that I found. I just put my faith in God and found an amazing church. That helps a lot. If you need to talk I am here. I love you both. Shirl

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    1. Shirl, I'm sorry for the loss of your Shane. Until now I never thought it could happen and until now I've never personally known anyone who has lost a child unexpectedly. I have googled every kind of support group that I can think of and I just dont know if I am ready to sit in front of a bunch of people and talk about my Noah, and my faith in God is very shaken right now. But writing works for me its always been my outlet. I hope to find some comfort and maybe be able in time to offer that same comfort to others.
      Love you<3 Cass

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  2. Cassie, you are AMAZING! I pray for you daily and hope you feel the love and support from so many people!

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  3. Though I may not know you I am terribly sorry for your loss. May I hope you find peace and a way to live your life to the fullest the way Noah Bear would have wanted you to <3 He was beautiful!

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  4. I am mourning the loss of my father, which was sudden. I know it's a different type of loss, but it's still very difficult. It was two years ago and his doctor didn't respond to the call in time, which was made at 4 AM in the morning (you are a cardiologist...expect to be on call 24/7 especially when your patient is in the hospital!). She actually didn't arrive until an hour AFTER his death and 6 hours after they called her. I don't know if it would have made a difference, but it still made me mad. It was SO difficult to go back to my parents' house after because I expected him to be walking out of his bedroom and then down the stairs to sit at his usual spot at the kitchen table to read his morning newspapers. It's been 2 years and sadly I still expect that when I visit :/ I see a therapist, too. My family doesn't really talk about him or his death. Each person mourns in a different way, and my Dad and I were very close. Life sure is different without the person you love in it. Even I feel different. It's been 2 years and I'm still trying to find myself. It's a long process, but healing is taking place on a day by day basis. It's not something you just get over, but it something you need to learn to live with. This sad event is a part of who you are now. It's not something you try to forget, but it is something you embrace. And part of that is hanging on to those memories. Keep talking...keep writing...keep remembering...because nobody can take that away from you.

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  6. Cassie-

    I can't even imagine what you, your husband, and family are going through! Thinking of all of you and sending positive thoughts all of your guys' way!

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